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cant fall asleep
a lot of stuff to do:
- create a business model for my new tkd
- find a location for my new tkd
- meet people to keep me sane and to fill this huge void in my heart
- find a girl that will keep me occupied and entertained
- do all the bullshit stuff that is asked of me by people who do not have the authority to ask
- stop having relapses when it comes to niki
- just follow through with this other girl. who gives a fuck if shes messing around with you. at least it keeps your mind occupied
- keep practicing business interactions (phone + 1 on 1 interview)
- work on public speaking skills
- move on from my past life
- move on from niki completely
- cut off my old friends, it just hurts and only makes me relapse
- stop longing for california, make the best of my current situation
- master tkd business
- make my business successful so i can hurry up and continue my own career
- i know i will not be happy for a really long time, but at least smile once a day and laugh out loud once a day
- work out everyday
- cut down on drinking…
- find a weed connect
- try not to smoke cigs so much…
- find my peace, i thought CO would help with this, but i still have yet to find peace…. wtf is wrong with me…
- be optimistic
- trust that everything will work out
- trust in your own abilities, give yourself more credit, you really deserve it and you are not as incompetent and worthless as you make yourself to be
- stop hating life…
- stop comparing to others
- stop longing for the things you cant have
- stop being a little bitch
- stop stop stop, just stop.
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