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cant sleep

for the past couple of days, whenever i try to fall asleep i get this weird sensation. i dont know what it is, but i get the feeling of when you ride a rollercoaster and it feels like your stomach is going up into your chest. and it wakes me up. i dont know why i am getting this feeling. maybe i am feeling uneasy? or maybe i am feeling hurt? i really dont know where it goes to b/c lately, things have kind of mellowed out… but yeah… its a weird thing that my body is doing. and i dont want it to do it. i dont want to feel like something is wrong or out of wack or w/e. i just want to be able to go through the day/week/month feeling like things are ok. i am content with ok. i am content with just being lonely about missing my friends. i am content with not pursuing my career. i am content with my duties as the oldest son. i am coming to terms with all this. i am ok. so. why is my body manifesting this weird falling sensation? and not letting me sleep? i dont know. and i care… lol. anyway. yeah.