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coming to berkeley
coming here was great. i was able to see the people i love. they made me feel at home and made me feel like i always have people to come back to. but it made me feel so damn empty. such a fleeting sensation and soon i will be without it again. on top of that, seeing nicolette dancing, being sincerely happy, her growth. its crazy and made me rather sad. but its ok, i am so happy for her. she seemed happy. haha guess she is better off without me. now i am tempted to read through her tumblr, but i dont think thats a good idea. lol, sadly i am pretty sure i will probably scroll through real quick though, i hate myself. wasnt too painful though. guess everything is dying down. well i hope its dying down. but i wouldnt know, i was pretty much drunk for 2/3 of the time i was here. i do miss her. fuck that whatever. anyway time to sit down with this lease. i need to get work done. my family is depending on me. i am depending on this too. i need to accomplish this and grow myself. i dont want to be too outshined by nicolette, i do have my own competitive streak. ok. time to be productive and stop thinking about things. yep.
