overratedthoughts

just got torn a new one

miserable. i dont know why i need to be treated this way, but at the same time, i understand his points. i work hard and try hard, but it doesnt really mean shit. i really hate my parents for putting me here. i really hate them b/c in all honesty, they do not need to try and do this shit. i dont need this shit. i will be fine w/o it. in fact i didnt ask for this shit. the more unhappy i get here, the more i know that i will resent my parents and my fucking brother. and you know what? im really ok with that. i dont need them. they need me. theyve depended on me for their own fucking problems. if they just knew how to manage their shit better, then i wouldnt be here… i wouldnt be unhappy, miserable, lonely, and feel tinier than an ant. my heart hurts. my body hurts. my mind hurts. my ego hurts. i dont need this shit at all. but i cant fucking back out b/c of my goddamn family. i fucking hate my family. i hate my life. i hate all this shit right now. goddamn. please somebody kill me. and take me out of my goddamn misery. this shit is bullshit.